The past couple weeks, I have begun the first leg of my transition journey, the mental stage. I have had to process a lot of thoughts, feelings, opinions, and more all at once. But one of the most crucial pieces to me has been selecting my new name. The meaning of names has always been an important piece of my life, and I have always derived some part of myself from what I have been called.
When I was born, my parents bestowed upon my female form, the title “The Victorious Woman Crowned With Laurels Standing Solid As A Rock”, a grand title for such an unassuming person. So for simplicity purposes, they nicknamed me, “The Traitor”, a title I languished under until I bestowed upon myself a new nickname at the age 13, “The Victorious Girl”. Unsurprisingly, my family made fun of my name change, and to this day, has continued calling me by the moniker that cursed my childhood.
As I approach my transition with a new mindset, I have searched for a name to fit the person I am growing to become. I considered naming myself after my father to continue the long standing family tradition of naming male children in my family, “The Son Of My Right Hand Crowned With Laurels Standing Solid As A Rock”. However, it was agreed that the moniker did not fit me, and that my very religious, conservative family might consider it an insult. I also considered, “Close Friend”, at a recommendation from a house brother, and while I am honored, it again was not for me.
It was after a lot of consideration that I finally settled on my new title, and I am proud to present “The Son Of The Heart And Soul Crowned With Laurels Standing Solid As A Rock”. Welcome to the world, Phares Loren Hutchison!